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#25 - I'm still around and alive!~~
Okay! planned to post but ive been restrain myself.
Been ages (3months only xD) since i post.
- happy 20th anniversary arashi
- happy birthday jun, ohno.
I am in a good mood because i know some of an update about dear aiba from mutual twitter friend.
I can never thank enough about that.
Believe or not, when i woke up the image came and that make me happy.
Wish for one but it granted, i want more !!!! xD
Just reading the comments and see all the picture make me happy :)
I regularly here to check for sub and videos and totally left twitter and other fb.
But wow~only that long i feel ive left for years. (i dont know how to use twitter xD)
And it will end?Aiba drama? i just follow them in insta and what a revolution seeing aiba face there(i feel sooo old xD)
And yeah communicate in English and have fun together about what we love, is what i miss the most T_T.
During this 3+ months surprisingly i dream of arashi. or at least arashi member. hahahaha.
(vividly remember..waaaaa~ill try ><)
-first-
there this place like stage in a mall and it is in the mall. there registration booth.
and as curious as i can be about japan and at the moment i am in a good mood,
I go to the booth, and the person there ask me to join by registering- it from tv.
While still debating to join, there this person came and register.
Guess who??? it sakurai sho. lol.
He register and then others member cameafter that..<<i feel they were staff xD
(i dont remember what i talk. huhu-or i just watching them? but kinda feel i talk to them)
they done registering and somehow i walk along them and sit at a place and have a little chat ( i dont remember what T__T)
for sure there only 4 member, if i remember correctly there no aiba and i ask where he is,
and sho answering he got filming or something-as expected from sho xD
after that, sho leave to help at the registration and i also go there because i did not register yet.
(the reason i am hesitate because register need to be paid and i dont have money but the tshirt is nice xD)
after that i woke up. hahahaha.
i dont know what all it is about xD
second ,
im joining the race, not that i need to run but it like a competition.
In a jungle - More like in plantation xD
I dont remember im in group or a individual, but my condition after walk/run, i am dirty and tired
I reach the final destination and we all need to do a last task.
The special judge brought, can you guess?
Its Jun Matsumoto. lol.
He here??? -
Because im heartbroken, i didnt go kya~ kya~ and in the mood of - i dont care-
So i did the last task along with the other
- uh i think its a group because i need to wait for my teammates-
It like shooting at each other- using canon?
Hahaha i dont remember. But no one dies xD
And my team lost.
After that, i dont remember exactly how i talk to Jun,
Its after the gift ceremony.
i think i approach him in a cool way saying i know arashi.
Then he ask me, have i been to the concert?
Then my reply was it hard its in japan and need to be in FC.
And he reply, we at asia now, you can go right?
Im cool right? After knowing that the Fangirl level increase asking where to get the ticket . XD
And Jun reply of cause through FC xD
But because it in asia, i have hope.
Maybe talk end there, but i have plan and calculate my money to go to concert.
Hahahaha. How it end up like that? At least i talk to jun. XD
That all for now. 8 years i hardly dream of them and just a short of time, i did.
My heart not ready right?
Other than that,
I am not healed. Im bad as i left xD.
I still feel hurt when i see certain someone-and i dont want to see him if possible.
He even win award and the movie not yet air??
I came to conclude that it all my fault.
When i want to love something i need a reason. And the reason of him to high.
- think he too nice.
- have specification that i like- polite?, good manner?- he is brat but what he show behind is kindness.
- i think too high of him he wont do what i dont like together with a girl before married?- but forgot he the same as other people and he will be like them because it normal. This is my miss.
- and i am too much delusional maybe not much about me, but ohmiya xD
If i can change my perspective and let it be. I might be ok. But it wont be same as before. ^^!
He taken. And like my sister and niece said, He married and stop kya over him xD.
But well if it about Jun - who always be nice to me in my dream - had someone.- i think ill be okay.
Or Sho - with high school girl and announcer - he still talk to me xD i think ill be okay.
Or Aiba - with his poodle women --with his smile i think ill be okay.
Or Ohno - I forgot to mention him. Because of the past, i feel sorry for him. >< i hope the best for him.
Nothing can surpass the feeling of the highest level of heartbroken and betrayal
because of my own feeling. Now, i will try to teach myself to be calm and think even it hurt.
Leaving the group and be in hiatus is a good choice for my mental but not my heart.
It feel like i lost something, but i still can handle it.
The only effect of trying to let go is sometimes i will forget and cant recall and if i try hard to remember,
for certain occasion i will remember. That is me.
Also, wuhh-i don't watch the last 2 pv too. Im sulking too much. lol.
The charm, the prediction going wrong or it just me?
I thought it will be red for tokyo ><.
If its green. I will be cry in silent. Not because aiba.
Because I love green. Maybe because aiba too.
Talking about aiba. I dont have good image of him.
The most bad image.
Googled and found he with a girl?
But now? he most kind among of all member in my eyes.
And handsome too. Lucky Poodle women. xD
Ah, i want to throw my rant (badmouthing) here. hohohoho.
About fans regarding their ichiban, what they like? bias?
It is my point of view - it can be agree or disagree.
Maybe my stereotype point of view. - will change later maybe? XD
Nino fans - as i can see, they nice - sharing and talking. But i think they think high of themselves. ?
My encounter with nino fan is not as good as i am expected.
Just whut? they sharing Jweb pic but blur it? If they think its wrong, just dont do it. It annoying.
Nice, at the same time not very nice. Including me xD.
Sho fan - nice. full of ambitions and will success in the future.They are smart people.
Jun fan - I dont know how to describe them xD.Anyone can tell me?
Ohno fan- Active in fandom. Hahaha. They also very nice. They the superhero type that will help without a condition. Even there are, it not something that other cannot understand. ^^
Aiba - Nice and friendly. Cute too.
Now, i most comfortable with aiba fans. Be it sakuraiba fan. They make me happy for the longest time.
Thank you.Ok. Admit i delusional aboutSA . Going to be heartbroken later xD
Owh. Last night,. I manage to watch aiba drama , though my laptop black out before it end T_T.
A live stream after long time and first time ever i can watch with full of my heart - thank you universiti wifi!
Umm... i guess that all?
it took me 2 days to write. lol.
Been ages (3months only xD) since i post.
- happy 20th anniversary arashi
- happy birthday jun, ohno.
I am in a good mood because i know some of an update about dear aiba from mutual twitter friend.
I can never thank enough about that.
Believe or not, when i woke up the image came and that make me happy.
Wish for one but it granted, i want more !!!! xD
Just reading the comments and see all the picture make me happy :)
I regularly here to check for sub and videos and totally left twitter and other fb.
But wow~only that long i feel ive left for years. (i dont know how to use twitter xD)
And it will end?Aiba drama? i just follow them in insta and what a revolution seeing aiba face there(i feel sooo old xD)
And yeah communicate in English and have fun together about what we love, is what i miss the most T_T.
During this 3+ months surprisingly i dream of arashi. or at least arashi member. hahahaha.
(vividly remember..waaaaa~ill try ><)
-first-
there this place like stage in a mall and it is in the mall. there registration booth.
and as curious as i can be about japan and at the moment i am in a good mood,
I go to the booth, and the person there ask me to join by registering- it from tv.
While still debating to join, there this person came and register.
Guess who??? it sakurai sho. lol.
He register and then others member cameafter that..<<i feel they were staff xD
(i dont remember what i talk. huhu-or i just watching them? but kinda feel i talk to them)
they done registering and somehow i walk along them and sit at a place and have a little chat ( i dont remember what T__T)
for sure there only 4 member, if i remember correctly there no aiba and i ask where he is,
and sho answering he got filming or something-as expected from sho xD
after that, sho leave to help at the registration and i also go there because i did not register yet.
(the reason i am hesitate because register need to be paid and i dont have money but the tshirt is nice xD)
after that i woke up. hahahaha.
i dont know what all it is about xD
second ,
im joining the race, not that i need to run but it like a competition.
In a jungle - More like in plantation xD
I dont remember im in group or a individual, but my condition after walk/run, i am dirty and tired
I reach the final destination and we all need to do a last task.
The special judge brought, can you guess?
Its Jun Matsumoto. lol.
He here??? -
Because im heartbroken, i didnt go kya~ kya~ and in the mood of - i dont care-
So i did the last task along with the other
- uh i think its a group because i need to wait for my teammates-
It like shooting at each other- using canon?
Hahaha i dont remember. But no one dies xD
And my team lost.
After that, i dont remember exactly how i talk to Jun,
Its after the gift ceremony.
i think i approach him in a cool way saying i know arashi.
Then he ask me, have i been to the concert?
Then my reply was it hard its in japan and need to be in FC.
And he reply, we at asia now, you can go right?
Im cool right? After knowing that the Fangirl level increase asking where to get the ticket . XD
And Jun reply of cause through FC xD
But because it in asia, i have hope.
Maybe talk end there, but i have plan and calculate my money to go to concert.
Hahahaha. How it end up like that? At least i talk to jun. XD
That all for now. 8 years i hardly dream of them and just a short of time, i did.
My heart not ready right?
Other than that,
I am not healed. Im bad as i left xD.
I still feel hurt when i see certain someone-and i dont want to see him if possible.
He even win award and the movie not yet air??
I came to conclude that it all my fault.
When i want to love something i need a reason. And the reason of him to high.
- think he too nice.
- have specification that i like- polite?, good manner?- he is brat but what he show behind is kindness.
- i think too high of him he wont do what i dont like together with a girl before married?- but forgot he the same as other people and he will be like them because it normal. This is my miss.
- and i am too much delusional maybe not much about me, but ohmiya xD
If i can change my perspective and let it be. I might be ok. But it wont be same as before. ^^!
He taken. And like my sister and niece said, He married and stop kya over him xD.
But well if it about Jun - who always be nice to me in my dream - had someone.- i think ill be okay.
Or Sho - with high school girl and announcer - he still talk to me xD i think ill be okay.
Or Aiba - with his poodle women --with his smile i think ill be okay.
Or Ohno - I forgot to mention him. Because of the past, i feel sorry for him. >< i hope the best for him.
Nothing can surpass the feeling of the highest level of heartbroken and betrayal
because of my own feeling. Now, i will try to teach myself to be calm and think even it hurt.
Leaving the group and be in hiatus is a good choice for my mental but not my heart.
It feel like i lost something, but i still can handle it.
The only effect of trying to let go is sometimes i will forget and cant recall and if i try hard to remember,
for certain occasion i will remember. That is me.
Also, wuhh-i don't watch the last 2 pv too. Im sulking too much. lol.
The charm, the prediction going wrong or it just me?
I thought it will be red for tokyo ><.
If its green. I will be cry in silent. Not because aiba.
Because I love green. Maybe because aiba too.
Talking about aiba. I dont have good image of him.
The most bad image.
Googled and found he with a girl?
But now? he most kind among of all member in my eyes.
And handsome too. Lucky Poodle women. xD
Ah, i want to throw my rant (badmouthing) here. hohohoho.
About fans regarding their ichiban, what they like? bias?
It is my point of view - it can be agree or disagree.
Maybe my stereotype point of view. - will change later maybe? XD
Nino fans - as i can see, they nice - sharing and talking. But i think they think high of themselves. ?
My encounter with nino fan is not as good as i am expected.
Just whut? they sharing Jweb pic but blur it? If they think its wrong, just dont do it. It annoying.
Nice, at the same time not very nice. Including me xD.
Sho fan - nice. full of ambitions and will success in the future.They are smart people.
Jun fan - I dont know how to describe them xD.Anyone can tell me?
Ohno fan- Active in fandom. Hahaha. They also very nice. They the superhero type that will help without a condition. Even there are, it not something that other cannot understand. ^^
Aiba - Nice and friendly. Cute too.
Now, i most comfortable with aiba fans. Be it sakuraiba fan. They make me happy for the longest time.
Thank you.Ok. Admit i delusional aboutSA . Going to be heartbroken later xD
Owh. Last night,. I manage to watch aiba drama , though my laptop black out before it end T_T.
A live stream after long time and first time ever i can watch with full of my heart - thank you universiti wifi!
Umm... i guess that all?
it took me 2 days to write. lol.