003 - Birthday, Birthday, Concert - rant, opinion,myself,experience

[nadzsanz]

On 25^th January, 2019 . Friday. [Happy Birthday Sho Sakurai]

Yesterday, I can say everything going smooth. I ate breakfast with my mom and dad. Later, the bus arrived without me waiting too long. A glitch happen when I missed the lrt station while enjoying sho birthday post at the twitter but still okay. I am glad I am not taking the wrong bus to terminal skypark and the other bus arrived early than I expected. The driver also nice, since I can’t see the bus stop, he tells me where it is and stop there.  

 

I arriving at the lrt station and meet with my ex-office mate at lrt station. It been two years since the last time we meet. We talked a lot and ‘membawang’ over the people at the office. We eat Korean food and it is my first time. The taste not that bad and she paid for me. I am the type that can’t argue. If they say its ok, then its ok. But, I’m feeling bad over that. Ah… I’m no good in this stuff ><.

Later while waiting for the bus to go back at the lrt station, there Chinese Muslim woman talk to me. She nice and we waited the bus together. We go separate way and she told me to be careful. In addition she said to me not to forget to pray (solat). It was rare and I thankful for that. I hope she will be always in Allah care and always be happy. Every hardship will return with a happy end. Aamiin.

Since I need to go back to Sg.buloh, I took a detour to Kinokuniya. Still trying to find monthly Tv, there the latest one but not arashi as cover. Moreover I already save the scan. So debating to buy or not for around 30 minutes. At the end, I just walk away because I want the old one.

At Sg. Buloh, I run for the bus and I made it, so I don’t need to wait for another one ><.  I go through my twitter and saw balloting can be done by FC members. I’m Happy for them. Moreover, even it is raining, when I arrive at my home it not raining anymore. So it is a good day.

About the monthly tv, I try to ask for my friend for her copy if she wanna sell it cause I feel terrible. I am this kind of person. Thing keep bugging me even it not important T_T. Then she said its ok to have it? I like really? T__T. Thank you soo much. I wish for your happiness all over the world T_T.

With all the happy occasion, here comes the sad news. Regarding the tickets for the concert should be people among FC only. I am going to type a full rant on my next post.

To conclude, this is one of my challenging and happy days of my life. Alhamdulillah.   

 

On 26^th January, 2019 . Saturday.

Belated Birthday Celebration of My sister birthday.

Happy Birthday!!

Semoga Allah sentiasa melimpahkan rezeki. Aman dan tenang serta selalu gembira.

Aamiin. J

Makan banyak sangat. Kembung perot saya. Hahaha.

 On 27^th January, 2019 . Sunday.

I am going to type about my feeling regarding all of the Arashi 20^th celebration concert and their Fan Club.

 

On Friday, It been a good day for me until the nightmare come. I read about the only people with the registered FC member and companion FC member can come. They sure treasure the FC club member. I can see that, but just this 2-3 years it worst(for me)? Before even non FC club can join the song voting and such. It feels they still here with me even I’m just an unknown ant from Malaysia.

It is not bad actually. I like the idea. No resell tickets and also everyone in the FC can enjoy the show. They also just need to be a member.However, how about people that cannot be a member? The idea that suddenly struck me makes me sad. We not recognize,  it still ok for me. As long as I can see them doing stupid things and happy, encouraging people around and make them smile, it enough for me. When they put this restriction, I am lost. What have I done this long and what with the me try to support them?

It one of the karma of me choosing this path.   

I feel people around  think- you don’t deserve here because you not in Fan Club or ever be to their concert. We all better than you, you should sit and watch- something like that. It always give me the vibe. And with this, when this came up- they feel sorry- but later they will said out loud I am in the FC who going with me. Or laugh at other finding their own partner.

For sure the company will do what benefit them. I really did hope they open international FC member. Because it feel right than joining FC while I am here. Probably this dream come true when I am 100 yrs old. But people did everything for the love right? So it not a bad way. I want to do that too but the timing not right.

At the end. Do whatever that have been planned. Always like this from start anyway. FC? Still feel certain someone mocking me with it.

Will going to do some cleaning. Scrub everything and clean everything plus sorting everything. Life must go on.

Until 3am I read about kpop fans experience to stop fangirling. I intend to do it too. Because yes. I obsess base on what I read. I want to learn how to stop.